Heavy Lyrics - Citizen Soldier & SkyDxddy

Heavy is a powerful and introspective collaborative track between Citizen Soldier and SkyDxddy. The song delves into the challenges of navigating mental health struggles and the isolation that can accompany them.

[Verse 1: Skylar DeMarino]
You don't like who I've become
Only want me when I'm numb
What happened to the life of the party?
Don't get me started
Don't get me started
I've got a closet full of skeletons
But I don't think that you can handle them
I've got a milion reasons why I keep it guarded
Don't get me started
Don't get me started

Explanation of Verse 1:
The song opens with Skylar lamenting a shift in how they're perceived. People only seem to enjoy their company when they're numb and carefree. They hint at a past full of darkness ("closet full of skeletons") that they're afraid to share, fearing it will drive people away.

[Pre-Chorus: Skylar DeMarino]
So now I'm too depressing to be around
I'm guessing being friends with me is just "too hard"
There's danger in еxpressing and safety in suppressing
In burying my brokеn parts

Explanation of Pre-Chorus: 
Skylar feels judged for being down, suggesting that expressing their emotions makes them a burden to be around. They see bottling up their pain as the safer option.

[Chorus: Skylar DeMarino]
The more that I speak my mind
The more I get left behind
'Cause I'm the kind of heavy, heavy
No one wants to carry, carry
The more that I spill my soul
The more that I get let go
'Cause I'm the kind of heavy, heavy
No one wants to carry
Bleeding out biting on my tongue
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Explanation of Chorus: 
The central theme of the song emerges in the chorus. The more Skylar speaks their mind and opens up, the more isolated they feel.  They describe themselves as a kind of "heavy" that people don't want to deal with.  This emotional weight they carry leads to a constant internal struggle: wanting to express themselves but fearing rejection.

[Verse 2: Jake Segura]
Avoid me when I'm vulnerable
My story makes you so uncomfortable
Feels like being brave is what gets you discarded
Don't get me started
Don't get me started

Explanation of Verse 2:
The second verse echoes the sentiment with a male perspective (Jake Segura). He feels people avoid him when he's vulnerable, implying that vulnerability is seen as weakness. This experience makes him question if being brave and honest is even worth it, if it just leads to him being cast aside.

[Pre-Chorus: Jake Segura]
The disbelief deep in your eyes and saying I need help
Left a crater in my mind that makes me blame myself
What good's the truth if it keeps getting disregarded?
Don't get me started

Explanation of Pre-Chorus: 
Jake describes the sting of disbelief and dismissal when he seeks help. This experience makes him doubt himself and internalize the blame. He questions the point of truth-telling if it's constantly disregarded.

[Chorus: Jake Segura]
The more that I speak my mind
The more I get left behind
'Cause I'm the kind of heavy, heavy
No one wants to carry, carry
The more that I spill my soul
The more that I get let go
'Cause I'm the kind of heavy, heavy
No one wants to carry
Bleeding out biting on my tongue

Explanation of Chorus: 
Just like Skylar, Jake experiences isolation as he opens up. He feels like a burden, someone people don't want to carry the emotional weight of.  This fear of rejection leads him to silence himself, "bleeding out biting on my tongue."

[Bridge: Jake Segura, Skylar DeMarino & Jake Segura]
Don't want anyone to drown with me
I'll lose everyone if I'm not fake
I'd rather die than let you see me break
I'm too heavy
I'm too heavy
Don't want anyone to drown with me
I'll lose everyone if I'm not fake
I'd rather die than let you see me break
I'm too heavy
Too heavy

Explanation of Bridge: 
The bridge intensifies the feeling of despair. Both vocalists express a fear of drowning someone else in their emotional turmoil. They'd rather maintain a facade than risk losing people by revealing their vulnerability. This self-sacrifice, however, comes at a heavy price: they feel they're becoming invisible, an unbearable weight in itself.

[Pre-Chorus: Skylar DeMarino]
You don't like who I've become
Only want me when I'm numb
What happened to the life of the party?
Don't get me started

Explanation of Pre-Chorus: 
The song then combines Skylar and Jake's perspectives, reiterating the core message. Vulnerability leads to isolation, reinforcing the feeling of being "too heavy" and unwanted.

[Chorus: Jake Segura, Skylar DeMarino]
The more that I speak my mind
The more I get left behind
'Cause I'm the kind of heavy, heavy
No one wants to carry, carry
The more that I spill my soul
The more that I get let go
'Cause I'm the kind of heavy, heavy
No one wants to carry
Bleeding out biting on my tongue

Explanation of Chorus:
The chorus of "Heavy" is a gut punch. It captures the fear of being rejected for sharing your true self. The more you open up, the more isolated you feel. It's a sad reality where vulnerability is a burden.

[Post-Chorus: Jake Segura, Skylar DeMarino & Jake Segura]
Too heavy, too heavy
Bleeding out biting on my tongue
Too heavy, too heavy
I'm too much for everyone

Explanation of Post-Chorus:
The song ends with a powerful repetition of "too heavy," emphasizing the suffocating weight of their unaddressed emotions. The final line, "I'm too much for everyone," leaves a lingering sense of despair and loneliness.
OVERALL
Heavy is a poignant song that captures the difficulty of expressing your true self and the fear of rejection that can come with it. It paints a picture of a world where vulnerability is seen as a burden, and those who carry emotional weight struggle to find support.